I feel a little like I’m on a spin cycle.
I have so many things to do in the next thirty or so days.
I really need to get serious about my grad school application. I had nightmares about that last night. It’s obviously on my mind.
I have to go deal with the rehabilitation employment person who was not so helpful on the phone. I am sure she’s a pleasant person, I mean she went into social work for a reason I’m assuming, but my interaction on the phone was not exceptionally helpful.
I am hoping that she can get me approved and get things through so I can start work in December. That would be great, although if I have to wait until the first of the year, I suppose that would be fine too. I can only work part time anyway. I’m not at all ready to work full time, so it’s just about getting me back into the community. I can volunteer a few hours a week until then.
I am trying to take care of sick people while getting over this crud myself. My mom keeps falling which is disturbing and I’m just kind of overwhelmed by all of that.
It’s really that I haven’t sorted this all into bite sized chunks. Until I do that, I’m going to be paralyzed with this spinning feeling. It just feels like everything is out of control since I have too many plates in the air.
I know that’s anxiety and I know how to manage it really. I’m just frustrated.
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