Breakfast 🥞

I went to breakfast with a friend this morning at 7 am. It was really nice to catch up. She needed a friend too and so we both had a chance to just be with each other and hang out. I am still freaking out about yesterday's endocrinology appointment, but I messaged my doctor in … Continue reading Breakfast 🥞

Endo

I saw the reproductive endocrinologist today. I wasn't surprised by what he said, but I was kind of disappointed. It was a two-hour haul one way to essentially hear what I feared was the worst case scenario. He told me that if I need estrogen and that if it turns out that I can't tolerate … Continue reading Endo

Mountain

Today I have done mountains of laundry. Okay, maybe that's a slight exaggeration, but the fourth giant load is in the dryer and I am tired. I don't mind doing laundry all that much, but I hate when it builds up and it's everywhere. It's such a pain to sort and figure out at that … Continue reading Mountain

Steps

I wrote a post awhile ago about how my therapist and I were starting RO-DBT and kind of looking for experiences with it. It turns out it's still kind of too much like traditional DBT for me to really get into it. I feel like I am going to a tutor every week. I hate … Continue reading Steps

Hormones

For those of you who don't know, I had a hysterectomy back in February. My doctor had to take one of my ovaries because it was too scarred, and she assumed that the other one, (which looked healthy), would pick up the slack. Unfortunately, that ovary has failed and now I have to figure out … Continue reading Hormones

Questionnaire

Ugh. I'm just flat out refusing to fill this thing out again today. I will give him a score and that will make him happy, but I'm not filling the stupid thing out. It's not like my primary care treats my depression anyway, so it's kind of a waste of both of our time. I … Continue reading Questionnaire

Doctors

I have to see my primary care today. He's a nice guy, but I find myself anxious anyway. I'm worried about him doing a depression screening like my rheumatologist did. I hate those. I think they are useful to catch a subset of the population who doesn't already have psychiatric care and who will be … Continue reading Doctors

Boundaries…

Nothing like trying to set boundaries and having people stomp all over them... There's literally no point in even setting them and I wish some people understood that... I hate having divorced parents. I'm 39 years old and they still can't get along. My mom still thinks she has to interfere with my dad and … Continue reading Boundaries…

Hulu!!!

I've discovered hulu. Between that and Netflix I'm never getting anything done again. There are so many guilty pleasures. It's actually a really good distraction from where my mood has been so I cannot complain. I've been completely overwhelmed by how I've been feeling and the things that have been going on in my life. … Continue reading Hulu!!!

Ache

Ugh I have a headache. I'm pretty sure it's the last vestiges of that med I took for sleep last night. I wish it had actually helped me sleep. I'm exhausted and I tried to nap today, but it just didn't happen due to interruptions and my being restless. I am frustrated and tired. Tearful … Continue reading Ache