I have gained 60 lbs back out of the 100 lbs I lost since last summer.
I know I didn’t lose weight in a healthy way last summer, but I’m really struggling with the weight I’m at.
I don’t know where the balance is. I don’t know how to eat healthy and not over do it. I don’t know how to not restrict and push myself too hard.
With my knee being messed up, it’s hard to do what I want to do in terms of walking, and I’m struggling with eating junk and emotional eating.
Food is something I can control in an otherwise seemingly uncontrollable life, and so I just kind of go to one extreme or the other with it. I don’t know how to just eat to stay alive.
I actually would rather eat healthier foods. I think vegetables taste good. I don’t know why I don’t choose them more often than I choose ice cream.
I am angry that I can’t regulate this. I need to lose some serious weight soon.
Ugh. Maybe I need to call in help again.
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