Absence

I apologize for having been away from my blog for so long. Things have been kind of hectic and unpredictable lately, especially with the Thanksgiving holiday here in the States.

I had a nice Thanksgiving, but I came down with a bug over the day and I’ve been fighting it ever since.

I have been wheezing and coughing and blowing my nose constantly and generally feeling pretty terrible.

It’s also been gray and gloomy and dark here and I think the combination of me being sick, the weather, and the stress of my daily life has really taken a toll on my mood. I’m seriously struggling to stay afloat.

I didn’t even make it to my therapy appointment today because of the combination of feeling ill and not really being able to find the motivation to leave the house. I barely got myself into the shower for the first time in four days. That was my big achievement for the day.

Today was definitely one of those days where I felt “disabled.” I hate feeling that way. I hate feeling like I am a drain on everyone around me. I know that I am, but I don’t know how to fix that right now.

I am struggling with feeling like I have a right to feel any kind of self-pity when other people have things so much worse than me. I just need to learn to be grateful for the blessings in my life I think.

Oh well.

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