I’m frozen in place. I’ve been laying on my bed since I got home 2 hours ago.
I’m still wearing my coat.
I can’t seem to move from this spot.
I’m pretty sure it’s just a fantastic combination of anxiety and depression, but I’m not really feeling up to anything at all. My head kind of hurts and I just can’t.
I think I’ve hit my wall of running in circles trying to outrun this depression. I don’t even know how I am going to make it to church tomorrow at this point. I have to go to church. Like I have to. I will be so sad if I don’t, but I don’t know how I’m getting off of this bed yet.
It’s not like I’m going to sleep the day away or anything. I wish I could do that. I’m not that lucky. I’m just kind of here. No tv. No computer, (this is from mobile). No books. Just me and my pillows.
It’s so bad that I can’t muster the willpower to take a walk today. It would have to be on the treadmill because it is so cold and windy and I just can’t.
Oh well. It’s already 5. I’ll get to call it a day soon enough.
Image from Pixabay.