Snake ๐Ÿ

Sometimes I feel like my mood state never actually hits “normal.” In fairness that may be because I can’t identify what that is, but I also think that’s because a lot of the time my brain is just incubating the next mood state.

I wrote about this last night in Hiding, but right now I feel like my depression is a snake in the grass waiting to strike at any moment. I’m trying to outrun it, but I’m frankly exhausted.

My brain is just sort of harboring this creature until I am too weak to fight it off. It’s such an unsettling feeling.

It actually leads to one of almost frenetic desperation to stay busy and occupied and on the go so that I don’t have any downtime. So far, that’s working, but like today, I have fewer things to do. It has me worried.

I’m sure I’ll survive. It might even be good for me.

Inspired by today’s Daily Prompt: Incubate

Image cited somewhere else on my blog.

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12 thoughts on “Snake ๐Ÿ

  1. I’m not sure there is a normal – not as in everyone’s normal – it’s just what is the level place for you. My level is a bit rocky, a few lumps here and there, but for me that is perfectly normal. I don’t know what’s normal for another person, but it’s unlikely to be the same as my normal because they’re not me and I’m not them.
    I hope the snake uncoils and returns to its own den, and you can unwind and find your own space.

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      1. I am not sure what it is. It’s always been the 365, and when I first started, it was almost like a history lesson. I couldn’t keep up. The second 365 was crazy mix, with really no direction except that I created little tasks, phrases, things I would do on different days, and just explain the photo (there was no daily prompt then). This 365 I am feeling more of a daily journal. I am the type of person who keeps things bottled up. So writing them down, in a place I feel safe, where I may have no views, or 100’s, doesn’t affect me. I also kind of take pride in my titles. Sometimes the title hits me before an idea so I bassoon that. I am sorry tmi! Did not mean to ramble so much, I rarely do that ๐Ÿ˜ณ. But thank you for your compliment as well. It means a lot!

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      2. Not TMI. I really enjoy reading about other peopleโ€™s motivations for blogging.

        I also express myself best in written form. My blog is my online journal and sort of testimony to the world about what itโ€™s like for one person to live with Bipolar Disorder. Itโ€™s different for everyone, but there are some similarities Iโ€™ve found too. It seems to reach people and it helps me too.

        I really appreciate you coming to check it out!

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