I sucked it up and went to group tonight. It turned out to be a really good idea. I am very glad that I made myself go.
Sometimes you can’t make any progress if you don’t push yourself a little bit I guess.
No, this doesn’t mean that I think the art class is the right way to push myself. I am kind of even firmer on that than I was. I really think I need something less close to my core to risk failing at than a creative outlet.
I do see the value in pushing myself when I am stuck and miserable, however. Group was really helpful tonight. Just getting out and dealing with people was helpful. I even had an effective dialogue with a difficult group member that made me feel like I asserted myself successfully without harming anyone and that was a good feeling.
I feel like I contributed and that I had something useful to add tonight without just taking energy from the group. That was my biggest fear.
Yay for group!
Image from the DBSA website.