I can be downright arrogant at times about things that I am pretty sure I know. It is one of my lesser qualities and it continues to cause me problems in my life.

One of the most fun things that I’ve found is that I think that I am Inscrutable, or impossible to get to know or understand in a real way. That has been proven to me to be wrong enough times over the last year that I’m starting to understand that I’m not the closed book I thought I was.

Perhaps I still am, but I have been painfully open with some people, so now I’m not hidden at all. Maybe that’s it. Maybe I think I am still hiding but there is nothing to hide behind anymore.

I imagine it’s a mixture of the two. I don’t think I’m anywhere near as hard to read as I like to think that I am, and I think that I’ve made myself vulnerable in a few situations.

Inspired by the Daily Prompt: Inscrutable

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12 thoughts on “Hubris

  1. A friend of mine once asked me to come to her house because she needed to tell me something. It sounded quite serious and I was prepared for some big revelation or confession. What she told me was not new or shocking to me at all, all though she was certain it would be.
    To me, she is an absolute open book and I actually think she is always very open in general about how she feels and what she thinks. The difference during this special occasion was that she said it with an “open heart”.
    Does that make sense?

    I mean, she talks about how she feels quite openly, and if she doesn’t say it with words, she definitely says it with her body language. She’s always joking about it, though, in a way to soften her pain or at least minimize the effect it might have on others.

    So, what I’m saying is that you might not be very good at hiding your state of mind, that doesn’t mean you are actually “open” at all. I hope this makes sense.
    It sounds healthy to me to want to protect your feelings, or at least the parts of you that can (still) be hurt. Also, there are things that only the most precious friends should have access to, don’t you think? Or maybe I’m just too guarded, myself…

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