I’m 40 days out from smoking my last cigarette and I don’t even want one other than just to blow up my record.
I don’t know how to make that make sense. I just want to go out and sabotage myself in every way I can think of.
This doesn’t hit very often, but when it does, I know things are not going so well.
I already knew that.
I am still kind of on day three of this headache, so I will be able to avoid actually doing stupid things. I will probably just sleep today if I’m allowed to.
I just feel the walls caving in.
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