I whined a lot about the new year and not wanting to make resolutions. It felt like a lot of pressure. It also felt like the new year was just this big question mark of uncertainty. It still feels like that.

I do have dreams though. There are places I would like to be by the end of this year. I am just not sure they are Viable or anything I dare to dream really. I am terrified that I won’t achieve them and that I will let myself down. Sometimes it feels easier not to dream than to risk failing.

Something I would like to do by the end of the year, probably close to the end, is be confident that I can get on the path to becoming a peer support. I’m not sure I will be ready by the end of the year, I think I need to be volunteering or doing something else first for several hours a week, but I’d really like to be on the path.

It’s scary to think about that. I know it’s 12 months away and a lot can change in 12 months. I can grow a lot in that time. I just really want it and it scares me.

I’m terrified every time I really want something. I kind of stopped wanting things because of that.

I stopped living.

I’m trying to come alive again, but man is that a terrifying prospect. Really. I’m trying though.

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14 thoughts on “Dreams

  1. Already, you’re more qualified and prepared to provide Peer Support than you imagine. Ease on into it, though. Reassure yourself. The more you do, the more you can do.

    Look in the mirror. There you are.

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  2. Don’t ever let fear stand in the way of you accomplishing what you want in life. Fear is the sole reason why so many dreams die in the graveyard. Take things one step at a time, the fact that you even blog and write about what you want is something most people don’t have the courage to do. So you should be proud of yourself always! 😊

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