When people said, “Happy New Year” this year, it started to feel like a command instead of the intended good wishes. I saw happy resolutions posts all over my social media, was asked countless times about what my resolutions are, and read numerous blogs celebrating the new year.

I am genuinely happy for the people who are seemingly thrilled with the idea of a fresh start or a new year and want to resolve to make something new, better or different than the year we left behind.

I just find myself with some Reservations.

This is of course due to anxiety, but how do I know that 2018 isn’t going to be worse than 2017? I mean, I sort of giggle as I type that because 2017 had some pretty terrible moments, but there were also some pretty amazing ones. How do I know that 2018 isn’t just going to be the year of stagnation?

How do I know? I don’t.

I do worry though. I worry about letting everyone down. I worry about not being good enough. I worry about becoming overwhelmed and sinking to the bottom of the sea.

I guess for me, a new year is a chance for new beginnings and new opportunities, but it’s also a lot of pressure if I view it from that angle too much.

I’m instead just trying to keep my head above water and continue on with life as I know it. For me it’s just a time to flip the calendar over, but I do wish everyone the best in the coming year who chooses to view it differently.


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9 thoughts on “Happy?

  1. Now, you are going to have a happy new year and you’re gonna like it missy. It’s an order Sergeant Kiki. 😀 Now go outside and build me a snowman, A.S.A.P. Move it, move it, move it. 1, 2, 3… 1, 2, 3. 😀 Just joking sweety. If you can laugh, laugh, if you can smile, smile. You are your own person and nobody can order you to do anything you don’t feel like doing. Just, be yourself. That’s something that people avoid doing, but you can do it. 😀

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  2. It’s a pretty big chunk of time isn’t it? It’s certainly a big leap from taking one day at a time or sometimes the necessity to take one minute at a time. It’s best to forget about the year ahead and live in the moment 🙂 🌹🌻🌼❤

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