I have a therapist who helps me to reprocess thoughts and reframe them in a way that isn’t so irrational. I’m going to need her this week.
I have a case manager who is tenacious and insightful and pokes at me and fights for me when I am kind of unable to always keep moving on my own.
I play the most important role in this team because really, if I didn’t put in the work or the effort, there would be no point in these other people doing their jobs. Sometimes I forget the role that I play. I feel like the helpless little girl that needs these people to rescue her, but I am not that. It’s just hard to remember sometimes when I am feeling stuck or lost in my own head.
I’m worried about my current prescriber situation. With my excellent and brilliant psychiatrist retiring, the nurse practitioner is not going to be a good substitute. I tried that yesterday and that was kind of a disaster. I had to teach her pharmacology. Not good. It scared the hell out of me to be honest. My case manager is trying to figure out a solution.
I am kind of paralyzed with fear over my prescriber situation, but grateful that I have people I can count on to help me with it it. Just trying to stay in the moment.
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