I was by my favorite flower shop this morning so it worked out.
I am kind of wrung out after my case management appointment. We had to do my treatment plan for the year today and so she read my assessment to me. Sometimes I would rather not hear those things. I know I have a lot to work on, I do, I just was kind of… overwhelmed by her assessment of where things were.
She didn’t say that I was uncooperative or noncompliant or anything bad that way, just essentially that I had a ways to go. I didn’t even disagree with any of it.
There was a time when I would have maybe felt validated or pleased even that someone saw the brokenness that I felt. I do feel validated I guess but it’s not really pleasant.
I don’t want to be a mess anymore.