This week has been an Exceptional one for lots of reasons. The biggest is that despite all of the things that I have going on, and all of the depth of the emotions I feel, I’m not sitting in a psych unit somewhere.
Up until now, that would have been where I would have sought refuge to deal with the intensity of everything that is going on. I would have been afraid of myself and my emotions. I’ve had moments, but nothing like I would have had in the past. Nothing at all.
It’s exceptional because I have had some seriously screwed up shit happen this past week. My psychiatrist, with whom I have an awesome relationship, is suddenly retiring. My mom is facing a potentially serious health challenge. I have some personally challenging things coming up to navigate. My personal stuff isn’t serious, but it is taking a lot of emotional energy on its own and some emotional preparation, so that is leaching energy away from dealing with the other things. I have another family member in distress as well.
It’s exceptional because I found out I still am not done grieving and I still need help sorting things out. I got some help with perspective yesterday that is really going to help me in my therapy appointment. I needed to take a step back and look at things from a different angle. I was so tied up and staring at my problems from so close that I couldn’t see themes running through all of them. Thankfully I have supports that help me to do that.
Finally, It’s exceptional because I have realized how much I have grown. I wrote a post, Reflection, about my journey with grieving the loss of my doctor and the things I learned about myself. They were huge
It’s been a big week in my world. It’s still happening. I’m hoping that the growth isn’t over and that I can keep learning from what happened.