When I was a child I thought I wanted to be an astronaut. Then, like now, I had an Interest in about six thousand things. I wanted to be an actress, a firefighter, a doctor, a lawyer, a playwright, an author, a ballerina, and a princess. All at once if possible. 

I am still having the same kinds of problems. 

I am almost 40 and I’m not quite sure what I want to be when I grow up. I don’t think medical school is really feasible for me at this age, but nurse practitioner totally is. I could even be a psychiatric nurse practitioner. How cool would that be? 

I’m not sure I’d want to be limited to solely doing psych evals and med reviews though. What if I wanted to do some therapy with my clients? What if I liked that better? 

I’m thinking maybe I could get my BSN and do psych nursing and pick up a masters in professional counseling and then maybe decide if I wanted to go for that nurse practitioner’s degree… or get the nurse practitioner’s degree right away and get the LPC later. I don’t know. I just want to help people like me. 


It feels so hard anyway because it takes so much money to do any of this and I have zero dollars. Thankfully there is $$ out there for nursing, and forgiveness programs if you work in non-profit settings. 

Then there is my obvious barrier with classes and classrooms. I feel like no matter how badly I wanted this, I’m not sure I would be able to do it.

I don’t know though. I am pretty motivated to get back to university and get my ass back to a life a recognize. This crap, whatever it is that I’m doing now, is some kind of purgatory. Even community college to pick up the necessary pre-reqs is crazy expensive now though so… I don’t know. 



3 thoughts on “Astronaut?

  1. I would suggest that you do what you can with where you are right now. You are slowly gaining back parts of your life that you didn’t have even a few months ago. Do what you can with the degrees you do have. Do what you can to help people in meaningful ways by volunteering (which I know you are doing). Write a history blog. Write a book that would make American history actually make sense to elementary and middle school ages kids (I know who could be your test audience).


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