It’s only Wednesday but I’m a little overwhelmed I think. I’ve been on the run solid since Monday morning. I have been going since 8am every day just go go go! 

I have an appointment tomorrow late morning but I think I am going to force myself to just go to that and stay home the rest of the day to relax. I need some time to just chill. I already have plans for Friday afternoon and evening that I’m looking forward to and then the weekend is thankfully free. I think I will be resting this weekend as well.

As I said before, I just think I was trying to go from 0-60 way too fast. Recovery takes time. 

I’m just exhausted and things overwhelm and overstimulate me easily. I was way freaked out at the grocery store earlier today. I just kind of lost my shit to be honest. That is not me at all. 

In all fairness, anxiety is riding fairly high. I think in part because my case manager asked if I was trying to put on a good front and so it forced me to take a deeper look, and in part because I have really been pushing myself hard. I’ve been pushing myself because I thought I was doing awesome though. I didn’t think it was much of a front. It wasn’t until that question sat like a rock in my shoe all day that I realized that maybe she wasn’t wrong about the mask. It’s just not intentional at all. 

So yeah. I think some sleep and some rest tomorrow will make a world of difference. It always does. 

Image from Pixabay.

4 thoughts on “Fried 

  1. Can I please just say, you have no idea how much I relate with this post? I so needed to read that there really are other people out there that feel some of the ways I do. Knowing myself and the way I am, I want to say don’t be hard on yourself. You’ve got this. (Btw I hope this in no way annoys or offends you!)

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